miscellany

Martha James Cragun, one of my ancestors, was an amazing woman.

I hurt...especially my left ankle and lower leg...I'm not sure what is wrong with it. Also my left arm is really starting to hurt. Among other pains, of course. I had a brain MRI this week...just to rule out having anything wrong with my brain that would be causing dizziness and tingling. My SED rate is down to 6, which is really good, but I'm still in bunches of pain. I'll finish up with my temporary meds on Monday, which means I need to call my rheumatologist to see what the next step is. Yesterday I was at my internship for 6 hours. I really enjoyed it. Today I'll only be able to go for a couple hours since I have work at 4 PM. My back is really hurting. I discovered goodreads.com this week. I really like it. I also joined twitter. I read part of an article about it as I was waiting for my MRI and it made it sound interesting, so I joined.

I have lots and lots of stuff I need to do and get done before I move home in August. I should probably get going now...go to my internship or whatever. I also need to try and not stress out too much...and stuff like that. Hasta Luego.

A Myriad of Thoughts

I have a lot of thoughts going through my semi-spinning brain. And yet, it some ways I have difficulty remembering them all. I am tired, even though I slept okayish last night--definitely better than most nights lately. I also have difficulty thinking straight, which makes things a bit more difficult. At some point I am going to have to ask for help. I've got lots to do, not a ton of energy, etc. In short, it's inevitable that I am going to have to ask help in order to get things done. I'm like so tired and yet I have somewhat of a long day ahead of me, but I'll make it--not a problem. So tired...oh do tired. Yesterday I went to Lagoon, which was lots of fun...but afterwards I was way tired. And last night I took two of my sleep meds to help me sleep, and they did help me sleep, before I went to bed I felt like I was running into myself (I know that sounds weird, but that is how it feels), same as I felt when I was so extremely tired on Tuesday. Tengo sueño.

Last night I did like all of my mounds of laundry, and then...the drier doesn't work. Hopefully it will get fixed soon...or they'll eventually dry on their own...maybe. Hopefully it gets fixed, I called my landlord...so, hopefully. Wow, it looks like I got tanned a bit yesterday:). I didn't burn 'cause I put on sunscreen, so I didn't expect to tan any. Well, I'm not complaining. BTW, steampunk is way cool. One time a few years back, when I was riding the bus to and from Lindon everyday for work, as I was sitting at the bus stop, a guy talked to me about Steampunk for the whole time we waited for the bus. It was the first I'd heard of it...but truly, it's way cool.

I love the rain...right now I am listening to the rain on the sun-roof in the HumPub. Yesterday I finished reading The Bonemender. I really liked it. And I discovered there are two sequels to it, so I'll be looking into reading them. I wonder what causes tingling. I really do wonder. I'm thinking of asking my doctor, and I know there are probably lots of causes, but still it would be nice to know.

My body, especially my joints, have been hurting a way lot this week. It will be interesting to see what my sed rate is. What is confusing is when I feel the burning pain that my rheumatoligist's Nurse Practitioner said is associated with arthritis in places that are not my joints, like the middle of my lower arm. Although, earlier this week I felt the burning pain extending from my knee down half my lower leg. I need to learn more about how to describe pain, since I experience lots of it and my doctors ask what kind of pain I am feeling and I have difficulty describing it. Like right now in my elbow I have this tingling pain. And whatnot. With all this pain though, I thought it was supposed to be getting better since I'm taking this temporary med that my rheumatoligist thinks should reduce my inflammation. Joan, one of my co-workers, said that my tons of pain is probably caused by the stormy weather we have been having. And perhaps it could be in part because of my lack of sleep that I've been experiencing lately. ¿Quién sabe?

I want, and eventually will, get an external hard-drive. Right now I'm thinking all probably get a 320 GB portable external hard-drive, since they are pretty much the cheapest. I want to get one sooner than later so that I can get the rest of my stuff off my old computer, so I can take it to DI, so I have room on my desk to set up my scanner. I have more thoughts, but I don't really have more time...Seeing as how I need to be at my internship in like less than an hour and stuff like that. I think I might spend a quick few moments doing some family history searching on Ancestry.com before I leave for my internship. Have a wonderful day and search "star wars awesome poster" on google images.

PS sometimes I feel clautrophbicish.

LOL...and so forth

You want to hear something funny? The other day I was taking a shower and I was so tired and out of it that I totally started putting shampoo on my face rather than my hair. Luckily I realized it before I got to close to my eyes, but it was rather funny. Last night I got stuff accomplished--yay! I have almost everything off my old computer, which is good. I kind of need more electronic storage space though so I can get the rest of it off. Then I am going to take it to DI, along with my old printer which needs work to be in working condition. I'm keeping my scanner though...totally keeping my scanner. I'd love to get it set up and scan things, but I don't have memory space yet or physical space either, but once I get rid of my old computer I should have both. Being at home I'm going to miss having access to InDesign and Photoshop. There is still a lot I'd like to learn about those programs, too, especially photoshop.

Today I went to the eye doctor...finally. It cost me a bunch of money, but soon I'll have nice new glasses--yay! It will be so nice to see clearly after four months of semi-bluriness. They have some really cool machines at the eye doctor's. They have this one that estimates your prescription and another one that measures the distance between your pupils and then, of course, the one that takes a picture of your eyes. Amazingness! I've also got a bit of cooking done in the last week or so. I need to keep it up as best I can 'cause I need to work on eating the food I have rather than buying more food. This way I will save money, which is definitely something I need to work on as much as possible.

I need to learn more about medicaid since that is really what I need to go on come fall. I have already spent like $2,000 in medical expenses this year...excluding paying for health insurance. It's a lot of money and it adds up. Also, I looked at my other options (which are limited) and they are completely unreasonable. I would be spending hundreds of dollars of month on top of the $200 monthly premium. There is just no way I can afford to pay that kind of money. Which is part of the reason I'm moving home...hopefully to recuperate. I figure I'll probably be there like 8 months or so. I'm planning to leave Utah on August 19--only two months away. I've got a lot to do between now and then. At some point I'm probably going to have to start asking people for help--difficult as that is.

I still need to write that blog on faeries. I will do it...eventually. It might not happen until I get out to Virginia, but it will happen. Well, I'm getting kind of hungry, so I better go get something to eat, especially since I have to be at work in less than an hour.

Family History Work

Family History work is so awesome and amazing and I love it! Tonight my roommates and I were talking some about it. There is so much I want to do! I definitely need to make it a bigger priority in my life. As Jesse said, if you make time for family history work, you will be blessed. I'm still in the gathering stages, but that is okay. At some point it will be in better order than it is right now, but currently I am focusing on getting as much information and copies of as many records as I can from Ancestry.com since I have access to it for free when on BYU campus. I wish more records and stuff were digitized. There is so much information out there that would be so much more accesible if it were digitized! When I move home I want to work on scanning in all the family history stuff that my parents have. I'd also love to get copies of all the family history stuff my relatives have.

Well, I should really be getting off to bed. I didn't sleep well last night...couldn't fall asleep... Hopefully I'll be able to sleep tonight. Especially since I have a rather busy day tomorrow. Hasta Luego (sometimes I miss Mexico...often even...)

Tired...Oh, so tired

Hi, I haven't slept well this week. Thus it is not surprising that I am very tired and worn out. But I just got home from work, so my mind and body aren't quite ready to shut down for a night's sleep. I often feel like it is easier to take naps than to sleep for a long period of time. Oh so tired and...weary? But I can do it, I can make it. I have a lot to do in the next few months...but, I can do it. I love fairy tales. I love Spanish. Leading Edge is awesome, by the way. I also like family history work:) And I really do need to get going on getting ready for bed...hopefully I don't get sucked into playing computer games or something like that. ta ta. PS I love movies and books, too. The movie Enchanted is one of my favorites, and Ella Enchanted one of my favorite books.

I have it--the second half of The Last Templar! I am so happy, somehow it got recorded. I'm pretty tired and worn out. I haven't been sleeping well lately. It is kind of crazy. I've been trying to figure out things in my life. So, as I mentioned last time, I am moving home in August. I'm not sure how long I'll live there, probably a semester or two, maybe more. A semester just seems like too short a time for me to recuperate and whatnot. But I guess we'll see what happens. Earlier this week I didn't even know if I'd ever be moving back to Provo, but I think it will.

Why am I so tired and achy and hurting... It is rather crazyish. Tomorrow's going to be a long day, like every Saturday is. I'm tired, but I took a nap this evening so it's not very likely that I'd be able to fall asleep. And I'm always forgetting what I need to get done. Annoying, huh?

Well, It looks like I am going to watch a movie with my roommate and her boyfriend. And I am going to try and get stuff done while I watch.

It's Happening...

My life is turning. It looks like I'm going to be moving home to Virginia in August. That will definitely spark some change in my life. I'm really not sure where my life is heading, but that's okay. This way it is more of an adventure. Stepping into the semi-unknown. I don't have much time right now. Hopefully I can type more in here later. TTFN

The midnight hour

So, I think I'm going to write a blog post, even though it's like midnight. If I were a more reasonable person I'd be going to bed right now, or at the very least getting ready for bed, but I am not the most reasonable person, so instead I'm writing a blog post--who knows about what...I guess we'll find out. If you were me what would you write about? On Friday I went to my friend Tori's wedding reception--it was nice. I drove out to Wales, UT where it was held. That was a tinsy bit of an adventure...although lately, me driving in general has often been a bit of an adventure...not that I want my driving privileges hampered in any way, but there were definitely times when I really should not have been on the road. I really need to find out how much I owe my rheumatologist and then get that bill paid. I figure once I get paid on Thursday, then I'll be able to pay that bill.

Did I ever mention that I am a hopeless romantic? Well, I am. Have I ever mentioned that I am good at misplacing things? Well, I am, especially at misplacing or losing pens. It's a good thing i have a whole stock pile of them from working custodial at the BYU Conference Center and Wilk. I must especially thank all those EFY kids. I like the EFY t-shirts this year--you can't tell their EFY shirts until close up...before that they look like any sort of designer shirts. Anyway...that's just something I noticed when I was on campus yesterday.

I think my sleep med is starting to kick in and my thought process is becoming more sluggish. I think I'll go to bed soon. I didn't sleep well last night, and I had some crazy dreams...not unusual, but crazy and detailed nonetheless. Well, i should go to bed since I have at least a semi busy day tomorrow. Until next time...Au revoir